Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Sadness

What should have been so joyfully wonderful has opened such a can of worms . . . we received a video of our little guy last Monday afternoon. We knew it was coming; we had actually thought it would have arrived earlier. We couldn't wait to see him in action and hear his little voice. It turns out that the orphanage was not entirely up front with his medical information and we are now trying to decide how to proceed. Our agency is not satisfied with the initial response from the orphanage regarding the undisclosed medical status and is requesting more clarification. Of course, if we do not proceed with his adoption they will be trying to place him with another family and having accurate information is imperative.

This whole thing is just breaking my heart into pieces. I watch the video of him and an so enamoured and cannot imagine him not being part of our family, but the potential degenerative nature of his condition is more than what we had agreed we could knowingly handle. I vascilate between feeling like a horrible person for not continuing with his adoption, and a horrible parent for not considering the potential impact on Alex and his world.

Then, two days after we receive the video, we get an email from Alex' school that their building was sold to a consortium of banks and they need to find a new location. Not since our homeschooling days has Alex so flourished with his education. The school director is confident that there are many positives regarding the move and that the mission of the charter school will remain unchanged. They will be allowed to remain for the entire school year, but will need to have a new home in the fall.

I really hope it's not true that bad news comes in threes. I'm rapidly running out of tears.

3 comments:

AmyO said...

My thoughts go out to you as you make your decision about the adoption.

Lori said...

Oh Yvette, I'm so sorry for your difficult decision. I read this earlier and came to comment, but got side-tracked by the pretty calendar.
Hmmm, not sure what to say other than I will say a prayer for your family (and for Guo Xin) and be thinking of you knowing you all will make the best decision for your family and somehow you will know.
I'm sorry to hear about Alex's school having to move too, I'm sure that's a bit scary for all, but especially for you finally having found the comfort of such a wonderful place. It will be alright. (hug)

Lynn said...

We will keep you in our prayers during this uncertain time. We love you, and no matter what you are telling yourself, I'm telling you that you are a wonderful person and we love you!